*yes, this is a nimbo blog

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Fuck the diet

I'm getting so close to my marathon and I can feel so irritated and tired and sianz. I just want to go home after work while the sun is still in the sky.

I swear running 7km everyday is no joke. It's freakin tyring. I really hope I will manage to run my 10km. Actually, I know I can. Just that I'm going to be pooped. I'll write another more emo post nearer to the marathon date. *note to self*

Anyways, I've reached that point of my "diet" where I've pretty much given up. Look I love to eat. I just can't help it. So dammit I'm just going to. It's tyring enough that I have to freakin exercise everyday and my weight goes down as slow as someone running through mercury. I don't want to freakin give up food.

Then you might say perhaps the reason why my weight is going down so slowly is because I'm not consistent with my eating habits. I go 3 days of eating super healthy. The next day I eat at Hooters for dinner.

-_-

Oh by the way, Hooters is so yummy! I freakin love their chicken wings.... slurps! Really no point having a meal there (although their Buffalo chicken sandwich is divine!!!). Just order sides and drinks can oredi!

Anyways, so yes. I don't want to give up on food anymore OKAY. Screw this shit I'm going to eat dammit. So what if it takes me 2 years to lose the weight I should be able to lose in a year. At least I can say I had a fruitful life eating all that made me happy!!

I know my entire binge system is psychological. But I swear when I don't allow myself to eat things I want, I AM SAD. I feel depressed and mope around. And I feel sorry for myself. Why should I have to live like that HUHUHUHUHUHUHUH!?!?!??!

I haven't even tried Mega Mc Spicy yet. =( But thankfully, Macs added them to their menu so I'll try it when Suraj is around cause I know he loves it too.

I'm looking at the nutritional messages in front of me and this is what they say:

1) Limit deep fried food to once a week (with a picture of a delicious look chicken wing, curry puff and donut on it HOW TO RESIST!?!??!?! But anyways, I'm trying that.)

2) Give gravy a miss. It is usually high in fat and salt. (ok this I do so it's fine. I don't like my rice all wet wet, even Indian food!)

3) 2 servings of fruit and 2 servings of vegetables. (I TRY!!!! But it's not so easy all the time. How to add veggies to roti prata!?)

4) Daily dose of calcium (I try and drink milk everyday.... albeit only one glass! But I have milk in my cornflakes every morning!)

Ok ok enough. The more I try and rationalize, the sadder I will be. SO FUCK IT I AM EATING!

hmph.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Ugly Nimzy

OMG My office is a dead town yet again.

Because my work is tied to schools and it is the school holidays a lot of people choose to go for holidays and courses and what nots around this time. Which means there can be a grand total of like 6 people in my office and I'm always one of the losers.

Cause I've already taken my leave to go to KL. Plus my next major leave will come in December. Till then I can float around in my white top around the ghostly office. My boss said I can make more noise. ???????

Anyhoo, it's easy to slip deeper into the murky depths of low self-esteem. It's easy for girls to say OMG I'm just so hideous.

True I know I might not be the hottest piece of ass walking down the streets. But I should be glad with the way I look now cause I've looked worst.

And today dear readers, because I am so bored in the office. I've decided that I shall share with you my UGLIEST photos till date. This isn't one of my over-dramatic moments. Trust me, when you see it you will totally agree with me. I might have put it up before but oh wells, it's always fun to see it again to have a good laugh.

When I was in Secondary school, by no means was I gorgeous. I was dark and thin, all thanks to Netball. I hadn't done my eyebrows yet and my moustache was constantly in its thick peak. Not to forget my brief ah lian period.

Oh and of course now I can't find pictures of myself in secondary school. I was so sure I had them in my external hardrive. But that's the story of life right. When you don't want a cab a thousand zoom by. When you need one there's none in sight. When you're late and waiting for a bus, 2 of the same damn buses come in half hour!!!

Grrrr... But that angst another time.

Alright then people, are you ready to see my ugliest photos of my of ALL TIME?

(you guys aren't ready for this)

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Oh but wait it gets worst!!!!!

Oh.em.jee. Like totally horrendous.

It doesn't stop!

There's no reason to celebrate.

Touching khin's brother with my ugliness.

Like it's totally so bad right. In fact there's a hilarious video to "compliment" these photos but I'll put that up another time. Let's analyse shall we?

1) My eyebrows hadn't been done.

2) My face was in its peak of acne

3) My rebonding was out of control. Flat and ugly.

4) I was still tying low ponytails with illogical partings.

5) I didn't have ANY nice clothes.

Ok let me explain what was happening here. This was during my worst time with Burhan. In fact, this photo was taken around the time where we had some stupid fight and I had to meet him to "discuss" it. Which meant agreeing with him of course. haha!

Anyways, it was around the time when he had solidified that I couldn't wear anything sleevless, tight or anything higher than my knees. So obviously these were the types of clothes I was gallavanting around with. My wardrobe was crap!

Plus I hadn't done my eyebrows. No fault of anyone. Just my own naivity. Thank God I finally came to my senses one day. Thank you Shu Umera!

My hair... oh my hair! Burhan didn't like BIG CHANGES. Also, Khin and I were in our "let's-keep-our-hair-long" phase. And yes it was rebonded and I didn't know how to experiment. Thank God for my Toni & Guy student haircut one day that changed my life and taught me to embrace my curls!

See this is why I love Toni & Guy so!

Anyways, my acne-ful state. I think I didn't realize how bad it was till I saw this picture. Thankfully, I did something about it soon after! Phew! Isotretenin! Who cares if it dries up your face till you constantly have to moisturise your lips and your period goes haywire?! AT LEAST THE PIMPLES ARE GONE!

Hence, the hideousness. I should really be grateful of the way I look today.

I (like many girls) might be quick to immediately point out my flaws! My teeth are too bugs-bunny like. My cheeks are chubby. My hair sucks. yada yada yada. And of course quickly demand that I change place before I take a photo so I will be on my "good side."

I may not be perfect. I may not be the most good-looking girl around. But I've definitely cleaned up my act! Phew! Thank God for that! (thank God for hair straighteners as well!)

So girls, whenever you're feeling down quickly find that ugliest picture there is out there of you. Cause most often than not, you're more beautiful than you think!!! =)

xoxo,

Nimz

Monday, November 9, 2009

Monday Sucks

My two weeks of detox has done me good. I no longer feel the burning of acid indigestion in my tummy. Ok wait, to be fair I really don't know if it was acid indigestation. I'm just basing it on my own diagnosis thanks to trusty wikipedia. hahaha!

I've had enough sleep yet I'm tired. Perhaps it's just Monday. It's quite le sigh and I feel like eating and entire slab of Cadbury Milk Chocolate. The big one not the small one. I'm not a wuss.

Today's dilemma

I want this week to fast forward to Sunday then Monday. But I want it to slow down after that! haha!

Sunday is going to be a really exciting day! Khin is coming back in morning and Suraj at night! woohoooo!!!!

It's funny cause it's either they are both not here or they are both back together! hahaha! Anyways yup so I'm excited for the weekend and it's only Monday. Le sigh. I guess I am suffering from Monday blues.

I'm excited for Friday as well cause it's Harpreet's birthday and we're going to PAR-TAY! We haven't par-tayed since KL which is good so I feel well rested and can enjoy Harpreet's birthday better!

I've already planned my outfit and my clothes, hair, jewelry make up, shoes..... Now I don't have an exact bag to match but whatever. It will be dumped on a chair anyways.

Ideally, I would love to wear a dress. But I'm a bit low of dresses these days. I really need to update my wardrobe with some. I saw this not-too-bad maxi dress in Forever 21 but it was just ok, not too bad but not screaming OHMYGAWDBUYMEBUYME! So I decided I wouldn't part with $43 over that sort of feelings.

Also, I'm not the biggest fan of Forever 21 so I didn't want to start. I like they're jewelry but that's about it. Their clothes are wayyyy over-priced and not the best material. I might not buy expensive things so I'm certainly not going to spend on something that deserves to be at Bugis Village.

Anyways, I haven't actually found anything lately that has been screaming at me like that. I wish something would cause I need some screaming asap. I did buy 2 dresses from KL but I was going to wear one for khinmi/suraj's birthday bash and plus it's a little low cut so I need to sort that out. Else, I will be going around sticking rainbow circles on my cleavage again. =P

I also bought this maxi dress from KL which is quite chilled out and not clubbing-ish. Sure I could jazz it up, but I don't think maxi dresses belong in Rupee Room. hahaha if you know what I mean.

I found this cute top in River Island which is red and kinda backless-ish and spakerr which was only $15!!!! So obviously I grabbed it! Planning to wear that for Harpreet's birthday with loads of accessories! Hehe!

Unfortunately I have to wear it with jeans even though I want to wear it with a skirt. But might be too much, know what I mean? Backless and mini skirt.... I think those days have flown out of the window to Indonesia.

OH MY GAWD, DID I JUST SPEND AN ENTIRE POST TALKING ABOUT CLOTHES?!?!?!?!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Suraj the Silly Sweetheart

I swear there are times when I get so annoyed with Suraj I feel like reaching into the computer screen and strangling him!!!

But then he does silly little cute things like these and all is forgotten:

[09:10] Nimosine: i feel like cutting my nails but like i don't want to waste my manicure
[09:12] Suraj: hehehe
[09:12] Suraj: why u want to cut then
[09:13] Nimosine: cause its long and its like hard to type and msg
[09:13] Nimosine: cause u know our phone the buttons are very small
[09:15] Suraj: hehheeh
[09:15] Suraj: aww kukuu
[09:15] Suraj: so its convenience vs pretty nails
[09:16] Suraj: oh how are we going to break the deadlock here
[09:16] Suraj: howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
[09:16] Nimosine: hehehehe
[09:16] Nimosine: i dunno

[09:16] Nimosine: u tell me
[09:16] Suraj: in the blue cornerr, an ugly lookin mofo we have CONVENIENCE
[09:16] Suraj: in the red corner, oh fuck me hes to pretty to be a boxer, its PRETTY NAILS
[09:16] Suraj: ting ting tinggggggggggg
[09:17] Suraj: d bout begins
[09:17] Nimosine: gigglesss
[09:17] Suraj: 1 right hand hook is all it takes and pretty nails is sent crumbling back to d saloon
[09:17] Suraj: to where it belongs

[09:17] Nimosine: hunny!!!!
[09:17] Nimosine:

[09:17] Nimosine: so i cuts ah?
[09:17] Suraj: CONVENIENCE PRESIDES
[09:17] Suraj: justice is served
[09:17] Nimosine: can i put this on my blog?
[09:17] Suraj: hohoh
[09:17] Suraj: yeshie
[09:17] Suraj: ok sure
[09:17] Suraj: put lor
[09:17] Nimosine: so cutes
[09:17] Nimosine: *kisses*

Oh sweetcheeks, what I'd do without you helping me with my silly little dilemmas everyday! hahahaha!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Routine

I've never had a problem with routine. I'm not one of those people like my brother who can't stand waking up early and travelling by same route every single day.

I'm happy with routine. And I'm happy with my 9-5 job. I like routine in fact. Routine gives me discipline and that's something I really lack in my life. Thanks to this newfound "discipline" in my life (and I use the term very loosely) I'm motivated to come to work, do my job and hit the gym after.

I'm even motivated to meet my friends after work and spend my weekends constructively cause there are only 2 days in a weekend and they can fly out of the window faster than you say PAR-TAY!

Sometimes, I like to spend my weekends going out, looking, feeling and buying things. Sometimes I like to meet with friends. Sometimes I like to partay! Sometimes I like to stay home and spend quality time with myself catching up on my tv shows.

But obviously, I digress.

So I love me some routine. I think back to maybe a year or two ago, back when I was in Uni. And this would be what Week 12? And it would be the peak period of essays, assignments and projects. And I would attempt to be multi-tasking and obviously leaving other things behind.

Sure I have deadlines and events to work towards. But it's still quite unlike EXAMS! I know that when the clock strikes 6pm, I CAN go home and leave my work behind. I don't like to make work personal and neither do I surround my life around work. That's just not who I am.

On the flip side, I see some people working till 7pm at work, crying over issues they just cannot handle. I think that's silly. Why get so stressed out? IT'S. JUST. WORK. Do your ultimate best during the hours that you're paid for AND LEAVE. Obviously, blogging and facebooking shouldn't be counted in that but whatever.

But I digress again.

So as you can tell, I'm glad I don't have to worry about these issues anymore. Like OMG I have to study for a paper next week, finish up my last assignment and prepare for a performance during study break!!! Gasp! Those were some hard times. I really deserve a pat on the back.

But one thing though. Every year in November, it's great that I'm kept so busy because suddenly time flies by and like I'm meeting Suraj the next day. And like I didn't even know how that happened! It's always a great feeling cause there's no anxiety and excitement which makes the meeting all that more special.

Now, with all this "free time" to think and obsess. I suddenly can't stop thinking of the fact that he'll be here in 11 days. Albeit I'll only really meet him proper in 12 days. Maybe it's cause I haven't seen him in 9 months that's making me all that anxious.

I just wish I could stop thinking so that I won't raise any expectations. That's the worst. Cause the reality is that we have been together for 4 years and it's not going to be as "crackling" (and again I use this term very loosely) as the years before.

Sure maybe for the first few weeks it'll be amazing! Just like our first few dates. Passion will be at it's peak and we'll feel like seeing each other ALL THE TIME. Then it starts to fizzle and you kinda fit into routine yet again.

I'm fine with that, just that I hope with my current routine, both routines manage to find a balance so I can spend enough time to cure my anxiety with my sweetie!

*fingers crossed*

Monday, November 2, 2009

CoNfUsEd AM i

I feel so confused. I'm pretty sure I'm confusing my own life and there's actually no said confusion at all.

I feel sad that time is passing by so quickly. My KL trip which I so was looking forward to is way over. Pailloween is over. Everything is over.

But then I'm happy that time is passing by fast. Then Suraj will be back. Then suddenly time will pass to fast and he'll be gone again.

I'm just so confused.

Like I feel hungry before I eat. Then full after. Then I say don't eat so much. Then I end up having a snack and then I feel guilty. Then I eat more at lunch and remain full and bloated till the end of the day.

Do the dilemmas never end?

I want to spend cause I have money. Then I don't spend. Then I spend spend spend. Then I have no more money. And the cycle repeats.

Scratch head.

I'm confusing myself right? Oh confuzzlement! Save me from thy evil claws and let me crystal clear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pailloween

I feel like Halloween is extra extra with a cherry on top big this year. Or is it just me? It seems that the rain deterred nobody except lazy asses like mine, Davi's and Harpreet's. haha.

Yes yes, I didn't end up going in the end. Davi and I were see-sawing the idea the whole night! At about 6pm we kinda decided we would go. Then it started raining catwomen as my cousin Dawina said. And then we decided not to go.

I was a bit bleah but also a bit ok la I don't mind going. I wasn't super duper feeling my outfit. I don't think I was policewoman-ish enough. Here's the look I tried at home.

OBVIOUSLY I was going to take out the Singapura crest before I went out!

Like hmmm... I dunno la. I was supposed to add some fishnet stockings. Actually the whole outfit was around the boots. Cause I really wanted to wear my boots. But like... I dunnoo.... What do you guys think?

I also had a Sheriff's badge and a gun. But still. My cousin Bhupz had a friend who dressed up exactly like I had imagined! With the shirt tied around her midriff (obviously I can't do that!). Short skirt and stockings!!

So yes, I was already quite Le sigh about the whole outfit. And I was lazy to PAR-TAY! And it started raining. And Harpreet ditched. And Davi finally said no. So I just ate some fried rice at home with my mom and slept before 11pm.

Anyhoo, I did have a Halloween party though called... PAI-LLOWEEN! Haha because all of us from BB decided to come together to celebrate Halloween together. It was super duper fun and I was soooooooooo happy that everyone actually came dressed up!

So as I said before, I decided to go as Dorothy from Wizard of Oz! Weeeeeeeeee!!!

I only needed the red ruby shoes and blue ribbon. Unfortunately I didn't get the exact Rubi shoe I wanted cause they have weird sizes but just not mine, so I bought these flats instead!

They worked well so no issue! So I dumped in my grey contacts cause Dorothy ang moh mah. Tied my pigtails and weee!! We're off to see the Wizard! The wonderful Wizard of Oz!

Unfortunately, this is the only picture of me in my entire outfit! Le sigh! And Pooja spoils it by not looking at the camera so I can't even make it my profile!!

Anyways, here are more fun pictures from the day!

From the left!

Corpse bride looking Victor

A very sleepy girl

G.I. Jane

A very missing Dorothy

Nerd

Michael Jackson

Armywoman

Chun Li

Wednesday (or Budhwar as we called her! hahaha!)

Maharaja

My cousin Ravi went all out! LIKE OMG! hahahahah! I seriously thought he was going to come as himself!! His wig was such a hit! hahaha!

Even me with my ang moh eyes! hahahaha!

I think Raychelle was superduper funny! hahahaha! She came as a maharaja with a stomach and everything!

Some fun twister games!

Pooja found herself in precarious positions to win............. hehehe!

So did Davi!!! hahahaha!

We played this role playing game where everyone had to enter the scene in their character! But I didn't take any pictures only videos! haha!

Then statue dance.

hehehehehehehhehe

How cute is Manno?

And one with all the gals!

Alright, I seemed to have taken more videos than pictures with my camera so here are some from Gurpal's camera.

How whimsical this is!

Me prancing around as usual. I love this picture so much but it's a bit far for me to zoom in and make it a profile picture. Davi's like got no reaction to my prancing. hahaha!

Group peekture! Can you spot some of the other characters?

-Boxing Boy

- Sarong Party Girl

- Johnny Cash

- Pairates x 2

- Desi Man

So yup it was suppperr dupppper funs!!!! We should really make this a yearly event! hahahaha!

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Bloatedness & Boys

Omg, I just had like the worst lunch ever!

I decided to go to the gym during lunch cause I wanna meet Davi for some Halloween shopping after work. Yes, it *might* be on.

Anyways, so I quickly ran home for a shower and wanted to tah pao lunch back to work from downstairs my house. There's this tiny little mixed rice stall under my block which seems really popular. I've eaten there a couple of times and it has always been cheap and good.

But this time it was just FUCKING OILY AND SALTY.

Omg I just wanna die right now. And worst, the more water I drink the more bloated I get. grrrrrrrrrr Hate this feeling of being a little tired after the gym and now bloated. So doesn't match! Next time I'm just going to buy a tiny sandwich from the 7-11 below! Despite its exorbitant rate!

What happened to the old Club Sandwich from 7-11? They seemed to have replaced them with these smaller ones that look questionable. It used to be my staple on-the-go lunch!

Anyways, today I would like to complain about a unexplainable global issue that bugs almost all women in the world.

Men and Football (insert appropriate sport here)

Ok but let's go into specifics here. Not just men and their insane obsession for watching a sport where 22 grown men chase after a tiny object that barely ever goes into the goal like YAWN.

But more like how football is their life. And how football can be an excuse to get out of a life.

Ok be honest girls. How many of you have gotten the old, "Sorry can we meet later or Sorry I can't meet today, I HAVE FOOTBALL."

Please explain to me what kinda fucked up excuse is that? You have football? Erm, excuse moi, are you getting paid to play? Are playing for freakin Manchester? Do you get paid a million bucks to get your ass frozen on a field?

I don't think so. SO HOW THE HELL CAN THAT BE AN EXCUSE!?

And worst off. They would mentioned it so nonchant-ly. Like oh by the by, I'm playing soccer so fuck off till I'm done and horny. Like we're just *supposed* to get that.

Look there is no equivalent for a woman ok. I've thought about it in my head. The only comparison in my pink, fluffy, bimbotic brain is shopping. If I were going shopping with my girls and my guy says, "Sweetie you wanna meet up?" I'd say toodles girlfriends cause I'm gonna go have me some of that! (*snaps fingers*)

Ok fine, I'm exaggerating. But I'd definitely cut my shopping date short to go meet him. And please don't tell me.... ohhh girl power! I'd never leave my girlfriend BLAH BLAH BLAH. The reality is we girls are so stupid that as long as we're really into someone, we would be staring at the phone for an hour waiting for it to ring. Or sending telepathic signals across a room. You catch my drift.

But guys are so different! It never starts off like that. In the earlier stages, the guy will be the one messaging like crazy. And like it won't even seem like football is his mistress and you just the smelly wife who takes care of the kids and cleans their poop.

What is this crazy obsession with playing football with the guys at the void deck / the cage etc etc etc. Macham it's a real tournament. Running behind a ball is more appealing than walking beside a lady!? GEEZ!

Or will it remain to be one of those mysteries in life that we never manage to understand and are forced to accept without asking anymore question? Like frizzy hair never being impossibly straight or whatever happened to the young and cute Leonardo DiCaprio?

There should be a 60 minutes segment on this.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

National Security Issues

Facebook is a mega bitch, dunchathink?

I feel quite irritated that these days every tom, dick & harry is on Facebook. And by that I mean irritating relatives and people who I don't really want knowing private details about my life. And by that I mean my clubbing life.

Even my mom is talking about wanting to join and we have told her to keep quiet and watch her Hindi serials.

People will take one look at my pictures and that's it. An opinion is formed. I can't exactly blame them cause I'd do the same thing. On the flip side, I like to put these pictures up cause I'm quite an exhibitionist (enter: blog.) Like duh. But then again, I still don't want some people know.

The air of speculation around my social and love life is always good cause I can deny it or play the aloof character till death. But once those pictures/statuses/comments are up there, you just can't do anything about it anymore.

And then we're spending the whole day telling friends which ones we want up, which ones we want privatized and which ones should be plain burned to the ground. There's obviously a hypocrisy looming around since everybody knows I am the resident facebook kpo-er. Hell, most of my girlfriends are.

So I want to spy on the inner most details on anybody and everybody on FB including where they've been, who they were with, what they wore. But when it comes to me, I suddenly spend like an hour privatizing my entire profile from people who I'm not happy with!

How now? Is facebook becoming the curse of life? Are we taking up more time hiding our lives from those with my kinda kpo eyes? Has it removed the essence of what FB is supposed to be? A fun tool TO SPY on other people's lives?

Is there any real way to balance it?

Le sigh. What problems we have in the 21st century.

This

and this

compared with this

you tell me yourself which is causing you a bigger headache.

On a random note, I'm having a serious craving for NUS' yucky yet delicious and cheap fishball noodles. Le sigh, I'd totally line up 20 minutes for them!

A quick diagnosis over the internet has informed me that I seem to be suffering from some sort of Acid Indigestion. So I haven't really been eating much and also I can't exercise so intensely besides running so I'm not losing like a whole lot of weight.

Also, yesterday finally I was like SCREW THIS SHIT I'm having a Muruku.... or 6. *gulp* Guilty as charged. I spent the whole night rolling around like a whale clutching my acid infested tummy.

Anyhoo, since it might be some time before I put up my post on KL, I thought I'd share my grey contacts with you guys first! In case you're intrigued...

They were nice la, but I love my originals better. Perhaps just once in a while for fun is ok.... but not all the time!

Anyways, I've got them for a month so we'll see! =)

*burping more acidity*

Le sigh, I've got a truckload of work but I've effectively wasted a good 1.5hrs facebooking nonsense, privatizing my profile, talking to Suraj about nonsense and blogging. Ok la gotta get back.

Shall I go for Halloween or not? Super duper lazy now! GAHHHH!!!